No One Understands
I have been dealing with IBS for my whole life practically. For as long as I can remember I have always been stressed and anxious and worrying about every little thing. Now at 16 years old I just feel like I can't go on anymore. No one really understands what it's like to suffer with IBS. The only person I have met with it is my mother and even she doesn't have it that bad so I feel weird trying to talk to her about it. I don't know what to do because I'm starting high school in the fall and I'm just very nervous about what is going to happen. What if I have to go during class? Will the teacher let me? What if someone hears me in the bathroom? Will they make jokes about me? Will I lose friends? Will I even be able to go out to something as simple as the store or a dentist appointment without having to go to the bathroom? It honestly sucks so badly because no one can help me deal with this. And I have no support from anyone (maybe because I have only told a select amount of people) but even then they can't help me and I don't blame them because they just don't get it unless they suffer to. It is a horrible condition and it makes me even more hurt that it is incurable. I've taken a lot of medicine but nothing seems to work. I don't want to keep switching my body on and off of pills so I'll have to rely on them. Nothing helps unless I'm at my house relaxing but I can't stay in my bed forever. I miss out on exciting things and ruin a lot of experiences for me and other people because of this. My anticipatory anxiety makes my IBS act up even more because I'm always wondering "what if?". I just can't seem to stop thinking about it and I can't seem to find anyone who cares to listen to me talk about it. I don't know what to do anymore I just want it to go away. Now. I think it would be great to talk to some people who suffer also but I can't seem to find any...so here I am.